Throughout my life, I've felt this restlessness. Like there was no where for me to be still and lay the full weight of my being upon to experience full acceptance, comfort and relief.
Jesus felt the same way when He walked upon the earth. He was far from heaven where He dwelt in perfect unity with the Father.
If you look at the four gospels (Matthew 26:36, Mark 1:35, Luke 9:18, and John 17:1), you'll see that Jesus spent a plentitude of time in prayer. Like He was getting some face-to-face time with His heavenly Father to remind Him who He was, why He was here and where He was going.
Who He Was:
Jesus knew He was the Son of God. As the Son, He has always existed in perfect unity with the Father and the Holy Spirit.
He has no beginning and no end (Revelation 1:8). From the breath of His mouth the universe was made (Psalm 33:6).
Even though He knew this about Himself, He didn't strut around demanding that all people bow at His feet and pay Him homage. No, He was completely humble. That is what makes Him so approachable. He fully accepts those who come to Him.
He says to each one of us:
"Come to Me all you who labor and are heavy laden
and I will give you rest..."
Why He was here:
Jesus once commented to His disciples that He had "no place to lay His head (Luke 9:58)."
This of course was figurative. Meaning that He could never settle here. Not that He was restless, but He chose to come to this world for a reason. This crazy, messy, beautifully-broken place that was not His home.
The King of the universe, who dwelt in inapproachable light in heaven came to this often dark world to complete a mission.
That mission was for us.
To save us.
It may not seem apparent at times, but we are drowning in sin. We only get to live one life and then the judgement (Hebrews 9:27).
Do we really think we deserve to go to heaven, to be with God forever? To the place where His glory dwells? Where there is no sin?
Unless we are living in denial, none of us can claim to be without sin. And that means none of us deserves heaven.
There is only one way for us to have eternal life.
And that is in the person of Jesus Christ (1 John 5:12).
He lived a perfect, sinless life, enduring poverty and suffering. Many became His followers, but by the ruling religious leaders, He was rejected and ultimately this lead to His death on the cross.
He died. God. Died. For us. Can you let that sink in. It is a profound life-changing truth.
But, death could not hold Him...
Where He was going:
Three days later, the stone was rolled away. And in the full glory of resurrection, He appeared to His disciples and to over 500 people (1 Cor. 15:6) before returning to heaven. His home. Where He is waiting for us.
For now, in prayer, He is the place where we can truly rest our head.
He is for us and not against us (Rom. 8: 31-32) and accepts us with all our flaws. He comforts us in our afflictions and gives us relief from trying to live in this crazy world on our own.
Because He lives, by faith, His Holy Spirit lives in us and gives us power, the same power that raised Him from Jesus dead (Rom. 8:11) to overcome sin and become more and more like Him.
And wherever He is, that is where I belong.
"But He was pierced for our sins, crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on Him, and by His wounds we are healed."
"Jesus I Come" by Indelible Grace